Saturday, November 21, 2009

Sista Girls

Ey Na! Nia and I go wayyyyyy wayyyy wayyyy back! To skinny Nia, and the girl from the projects back!

We're all grown up now. Can't run and hide when life starts to get rough. Got to stand up, be strong!

Today my heart aches. I know she won't say it, but her heart aches too. Her bestie... her sweetie.. her boo has just been called to Duty!

I have so much respect for Mr. Wilburt Lee. Sorry if i butchered your name. And even more respect for what he does to keep us safe. I know that my sista Girl is strong. She's gonna beee OK! (im my crisette michelle voice)!

Because words elude me now, I LOVE YA! AND PRAYING EVERYDAY.... not the kind that people just say! I mean I really am!

Love Ya Sista Girl.... and ure extra cool hubby 2!

Nia & Lee Tynes on his date of deployment

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Chasing God!

Oh My O WOW!!!!!


I just got back fr0m my google search and stumbled upon a plethora of devotionals. Ok before I get started about the devotional.. Let me just say that I have an 8am alarm set every morning for devotional time. Many mornings I'm just to busy to stop and find my book.

This morning... my house is in complete disarray and I have to make a delivery of products to a store. Still not finished tagging or inventorying anything.

I decided this morning that I was gonna give all of my first thoughts, heart, mind to God. I want him to be in charge of my time. Tears welling...

As I began to read the devotional I didn't think it was for me... it was about training up a child.
After reading I realized that God had given me the word I was seeking. I'm his child! and I'm chasing him.

Here's the link to the devotional... Hope it gives you the word you need for today too.


Time for the Lord

It seems there is never enough time in the day. Maybe because I don't give God my time first. Starting today, I'm gonna try and get my morning devotion done before doing...touching anything else. I can't find my book rt now... So like anything else I'm gonna Google Search one. Lord what would I do without Google... lol

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


Remember that episode from the Cosby Show when Rudy wanted to wear that dress but it was cold out and her mom wanted her to wear a warm sweater instead....

I remember that song playing... "it's not easy being me".... and how sad Rudy was that no one around her seemed to understand her perspective.

My husband and I just returned from a Cruise to Cozumel. The cruise was planned about a year ago as a fundraiser for our foundation's scholarship program. We were joined by some of our friends and family.

Yall.. just gotta understand that I'm EXTRA CONFIDENT BEING ME!!!! I realized that subliminally that bothers a bunch of folks. The ship was definitely a mix of groups, none that really associated to much with the other. I however felt like I could relate to most, but didn't really feel that any particular group thought I could.

so what...
can enjoy High TEA
love having WINE at the Piano Bar
will sing every lyric and dance to any BEYONCE song
don't care if my hair gets wet while SNORKELING in the ocean
believes in rewarding good service by TIPING
will say yes mam, please and thank you, because its MANNERABLE
don't care if my DOG KISSES ME
give GOD credit for everything

I would say that I'm a good mix of hood, ghetto-fabulous, prissy, classy, with a smidgen of southern arrogance, and lots of love for Jesus. Do I think I'm too much? HELL YEAH! I DO! I AM!


If you can't handle the fact that I
speak proper English
wear green contact lenses
have 18inches of hair that I grew myself that will curl when it gets wet and make you wonder what nationality my parents are
can walk in 5in heels and make you hate me and your dude wish you could be me
wear a skirt as a top and start a fashion trend
have friends that are coon asses, country, hood, sanctified, "fit the description", college graduates, law makers, accountants, teachers, entertainers, athletes
can do anything that I set my mind to doing, even when all odds are stacked up against me

I can't help that..... I will not apologize for being me....

I can't help who I am.. I'm me. Just like you are YOU.

I can appreciate the differences in people, embrace it, love it, welcome it. I refuse to try and understand why I should be put in a box to be one way or another!

I can't be only HOOD, because I'm from the HOOD! or only INTELLECTUAL, because of my DEGREE!
I can't be quiet when my opinion differs from yours
I can't be FAKE... because your definition of me defies who I am
I can't be anything but who I am...

The girl who's life experiences has made her everything that God created her to be.


Jimmy and I celebrating our anniversary back in may

Our foundations scholarship cruise with family, and college friends

Friday, October 16, 2009

Defining Me

If my name was written in Websters Dictionary... what words would follow my name? Would I have any synonyms, antonyms.. Would I be a verb, noun, adjective?

Here goes my definition of me....

Chandra Marie Joseph Williams

force that continually changes with the ability to adapt,
not predictable, unbreakable, dangerously independent

Chandra Marie
Chandra Joseph
Chandra Williams

Trying to find synonyms and antonyms.... i'm sure i'll think of something

All About Me

A few months back a I asked a girlfriend, who shall remain nameless to write a short biography for me as a gift for my upcoming 30th birthday... Cheesy right.. lol. I thought it'd be a really cool way to reflect on life as I approach such a momentous milestone :)


I decided to start this blog, as a self reflection, but also to encourage that kid out there who feels like an outcast because of their current situation, where they've been, or where they're from...

Most times we have high expectations of those who get the right start, with all the ingredients, home, parents, schools... and we'd be shocked it they didn't make something of themselves right?

Well expectations are also set for those who inherit adverse situations as they begin their journeys. We don't expect much from them... just hope they stay in they're place and don't bother us who work hard and play by the rules. We're shocked if they go on to lead successful lives!... "You mean you're from"...... "I can't believe it!"

I believe we should start EXPECTING them to do well! Set a different set of standards for those kids who are "hopeful in the hood"! (I just luv that term... lol) Help them find roads that lead to promising futures!

That's what countless, teachers, cousins, friends, neighbors, mama's, grand-mama's, aunts, and uncles did for me!


Don't be soooo SHOCKED People.... that I'm 'THAT GIRL FROM THE PROJECTS!